man not sure where to start. i´ve had a lot of things on my mind lately. with my hammock, i was thinking about calling the elders that are on my island and seeing if they could maybe get me another one, i mean i could find one here but just the fact that it comes from san blas makes it cooler :) yeah i felt bad about losing my shoes so i think that´s why i never told you haha. but i bought some other ones not too long after and they´ve held up fine ever since. i did think of one request for the package. call me paranoid but i think my teeth might be moving. it´s not big, but i was gonna see if i still had my retainer. i don´t know if i put it in that box or not, and if it´s not there then no big deal, but if you could maybe look for it that would be great :)
well let´s start with that family. so on wednesday or thursday we got a call saying that there had been a date written bad, so we had to go get that resolved, and we did and turned all the papers in and everthing, and on friday the "bride" went over and got the date of the marriage, and it´s for this coming friday. so they´ll miss valentines day by one day but oh well haha. everything is going pretty well with them. we´ll teach the last few things this week and hopefully have the interview on friday and the baptism on saturday. the only problem is that we have stake conference this weekend, so it´s gonna be a little tough planning around that, but hopefully all goes well. something kind of not so good happened yesterday with them though. so we were waiting in the doors before church and whatnot, and the member came that always goes to pick them up, but they weren´t with her. after talking with her a little bit, i found out that apparently the husband is pretty racist and really doesn´t like gringos, and he didn´t want to come to church because during the week we went by to teach them, and at the end of the lesson i wanted him to do the prayer, and he didn´t really want to but i kinda pushed a little bit cause he had never prayed and i knew it would be good for him, so he finally did it, but i guess that just drove him up the wall. and like one day we were on divisions and i was with another gringo and we passed by and he also really didn´t like that, so that was a nice soccer punch to the gutt haha. now i don´t really know how to act around him, and it just super depressed me during church. with all the other problems that i had during the week that i´ll explain, i was just wondering what good i was doing and why i was even there. that i was doing nothing and there was no point and i was just failing and alone. they finally did end up coming to church because the grandson told him that he really wanted him to go and he´s gonna come by every sunday to get him, so that was good. but it was super hard. i just felt like nothing was going right and thoughts like "why would i ever want to extend if i have weeks like this" came in and it was just tough. how i am supposed to love someone that hates me? she went on to explain that oftentimes the men have problems with gringos, and she didn´t really say why, but that they just do. all the women are fine with them, for whatever reason, but the men no. and especially since i have a comp that likes to talk a lot, and i´m not one to push my way into a conversation so they take that as i´m boring or too good for them or whatever. so yeah it was kind of a pretty negative experience on sunday.
that same day that we got the phone call to fix that wrong date, on the way back, i guess my comp got really mad again, and when i got to the house i find that he wasn´t behind me, and i didn´t know where he was. i decided to wait for a bit, and he came in like 5 minutes later with food, so he had gone to the little store to get food without telling me or anything. i asked him why he did that, and he played dumb for a while and pretended like he didn´t know what i was talking about, but then i got pretty mad. i´m sorry but this time i didn´t even try to be nice cause that was just too much. i´ll spare you the details, but the mission manual says that we´re supposed to call president if something like that happens, i figured that was a petty thing to call him about, but i needed help so i just called our district leader. he didn´t really say much to me, but asked to talk to my comp and they talked for 5 minutes and yeah. i don´t know what went down, but i was just super frustrated. i feel like whatever test i was given with this comp i failed, and i just wasted 8 weeks. i agree a lot with what dad said. i was thinking about "feeling the Spirit," and it made me think that maybe he does feel the Spirit, because like before the mission i felt it, and i went swimming and flirted with girls and slept in and stuff, but i had never received revelation for another person or tried to make them feel it and bring it to their house, and it seems to me that that´s the difference. these things are true, and he can feel that, but if we´re not obedient we can´t receive revelation for other people and can´t bring it to their house, so they´ll never know it´s true. i could be wrong, i mean before it wasn´t a "sin" to sleep in like it is now, but that´s kinda how i see it.
one good thing did happen this week though. so i had the strongest craving for french toast, cause i hadn´t had it since the mtc, and so we went over to our cook´s house and made french toast with her. it was a success i would say. they had never had it before and they said they liked it, so that was kinda fun :) but that´s about it. honestly this was just a week of despair, it was super hard. i´ve been trying to figure out when i should go home still, but i decided i can´t decide right now. honestly if i keep having changes like this i don´t think i could extend, so i´ll have to see how the next change goes. i´ve got a feeling i´ll be going up to DL and training, so we´ll see. so sorry that´s not the best letter, this is the last week and we should have some baptisms so hopefully it´s a good one. i´m glad to hear everyone is happy at home. i´m glad you´re getting lots of snow too haha. i hope you have another great week, and we´ll talk in 8 days!
much love,
elder paskett
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